It is well past both Evelyn and Isaiah's birthdays - unless you're talking half-birthdays which are coming up. But these are some thoughts that have been swirling around in my head since their birthdays and I am finally getting around to actually writing about it. I will warn you that I am going to gripe a bit. I'll try not to be too negative, but I am going to be honest. Hopefully the pictures from Evelyn's birthday will help temper some of that.
I already posted a little about
Isaiah's birthday party and my attempt at making a fire truck cake. We also had a party for Evelyn for her 5th birthday. When I was growing up I did not have a lot of birthday parties. My parents would host family parties, but we did not have the big "kid parties." The one occasion I remember was my 5th birthday where my parents did actually throw a party for me and some of my friends. Looking back I'm not sure why they chose to do a party for this birthday considering my mom was pregnant with my sister and delivered 2 days later. As much work as it took to put together Evelyn and Isaiah's parties (which were fairly simple compared to some!) I couldn't imagine being 9 months pregnant and trying to pull it all together!
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| Evelyn's cake. She wanted a purple ballerina/princess cake. I found the idea for the cake topper on etsy. The cake is just a 2-layer round cake and I put some flaked coconut around the outside. I was actually petty satisfied with how it came out and it was waaaaay easier than Isaiah's! |
That is really the only "kid" birthday party I remember. The fact that my parents didn't throw big birthday parties for us did cause a bit of contention between me and my parents. I don't really remember all their reasons for not doing it, but now after having thrown two "kid" parties, I think I know the real reason behind it - they are A LOT of work - and I'm not sure that the result was really worth the lack of sanity on my part.
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| Evenly and her friends ready to devour the food. |
Although both Evelyn and Isaiah had relatively simple, low-key parties, there is still a ton of work involved when you are hosting something at your house. With Isaiah's party, I was up until 1 or 2 in the morning finishing the cake - and then cleaning up after finishing the cake. I didn't have to stay up quite as late for Evelyn's party, but the day of there was a lot prep work to finish up. I don't really remember, but I
might have taken a shower before Isaiah's party. For Evelyn's I ended up finally getting in the shower about an hour before guests arrived and just throwing on a t-shirt and jeans - no make-up, hair in a ponytail. Some of this I acknowledge is my own problem (i.e. not doing more prep in advance, not requesting help from others, not getting enough rest, etc.).

I also am very task-oriented when it comes to putting on stuff like this. I kind of just get in my "zone" and power through until the work is done. This works great when you're on your own and can just focus. Not so much with kids - who don't recognize the importance of what you are doing and tend to interrupt and make demands because what they want/need in that moment is so much more important that what you are doing, even if what you are doing is for their benefit. Because of that I find myself getting very frustrated and short-tempered with the kids as the day goes on. This does not make for happy kids or happy mom and is hardly the kind of feeling you want going into a party.

By the time it was over I had pretty much resolved that I would not be doing this again. Not because the kids didn't have a good time - they all enjoyed themselves - but because I felt so bad about losing my patience with them during the preparations. I feel that if in the process of throwing a party to try to make my kids' day special I end up losing my sanity and feeling like I'd rather adopt them out, then maybe it's really not worth the effort. If I'm going to go to the work of throwing a party, I want to enjoy it too! They'd really be just as happy going somewhere special, or just having cake and ice cream at home. Maybe most of it is just my personality and expecting too much of myself, and still not knowing my limits as to how much is realistic to accomplish on my own while also taking care of two kids.
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| Modeling the tie-dyed t-shirts they made. This was our activity at Evelyn's party. Unfortunately I completely forgot to take any pictures of the kids making their shirts,so I just have Evelyn and Isaiah after the shirts were done. Evelyn's headband even completes the crazy retro look! |
Maybe one of these days I'll get to the point where I can relax and enjoy the party as well as hosting. Until then I think I'm going to have to limit myself to casual get togethers or a playtime with friends at the park or zoo. Forget the cake, forget the presents, forget the games. Let's just hang out with friends. Now, when my kids ask me why I'm not going to throw them a party for their next birthday do I tell them this story, or come up with a reason they're more likely to understand?